MotherBearWithAShotgun
A Little Darkly
Name When Banned: Bear With a Shotgun
Steam ID: STEAM_1:0:45149691
Game: CS:GO
Server: Toronto Darkly CS:GO
Ban Reason: Banned for TK
First of all, I would like to apologize for consuming so much of everyone's time. (not asking for ban appeal)
I didn't really know where to post this where Roach would be able to see it, but I felt like this was the section it had to be.
Past few days it has been really tough for me, I broke up with my girlfriend, my dog is really old and is going to die soon, business has not really been that great for me... best friend moved to Korea, and my other best friend might go to jail for something he didn't do.
Main reason I wanted to get un-banned was because I felt like I needed a community, a place where I could possibly forget about the outside world, and slumber into something I like to call "the zone". Last night while i was realizing my failed attempts to getting un-banned, that the entire time I was having conversations between the admins and the community, around 350 people have read my ban appeals. Main reason I wrote this was because I felt somewhat alive last night, while I was drinking my soup, I couldn't help but wonder if I made people "feel" from the thread. I know the admins were angry/upset, some parts of the community found it hilarious and filled with trolling material, but I felt fucking amazing, no matter how small or how insignificant it was I affected someones day, maybe I made someone laugh, maybe I made someone feel really fucking upset, but the point is I, ME, I fucking did something that made someone feel. So what did I do? I got involved, I started posting threads and participating in them, I had small talks and discussions about League of Legends and DOTA, and for the first time in a VERY long time, I was in the zone. But the reason I wanted Roach to be able to see this post here, and why I felt it necessary for it to be here. Was because last night I saw this.
... I was speechless, the man who banned me and the person I thought that would never forgive me, looked past all my wrong doings and actually talked to me. He doesn't realize what he did but that very same night, I ran to my ex-girlfriend's (now current) house and talked to her about all the great times we had, and all the bad times that we had, After reading what Roach typed I realized that the world isnt perfect, AND THAT IS OKAY, I learned that just talking or saying anything can help remedy a situation which looked fatal. I teared, and realized that even though you may not particularly like someone, or even if you hate them. Just saying a sentence, even maybe a few words could really make them feel a bit better to tackle the next day.
(we initially broke up because she found out that I use to be in part of a drug trafficking group apparently, if you run to a girls house, show up sweaty and knock on her door, she will forgive you :3)
SO Roach to end my rant I would like to thank you, all the admins, and everyone who read my threads and would like to leave you with a small thought.
It doesn't matter how small or insignificant you find your actions, but once you do them, for better or for worse, you have changed the world, or atleast someones.
I would just like to leave a poll, if the community wishes me to be un-banned great, if they community thinks that I should remained banned great, I will stick around either way and see you all in the forums
Would just like the opinion of the community, whether or not it happens through admin's decision is up to them, would just like to know what you guys think
Also this will be my last post in this section so dont worry about me coming back and appealing again tomorrow.
P.S. English is my second language so if something doesnt make sense, im sorry :/
Originally from korea
Steam ID: STEAM_1:0:45149691
Game: CS:GO
Server: Toronto Darkly CS:GO
Ban Reason: Banned for TK
First of all, I would like to apologize for consuming so much of everyone's time. (not asking for ban appeal)
I didn't really know where to post this where Roach would be able to see it, but I felt like this was the section it had to be.
Past few days it has been really tough for me, I broke up with my girlfriend, my dog is really old and is going to die soon, business has not really been that great for me... best friend moved to Korea, and my other best friend might go to jail for something he didn't do.
Main reason I wanted to get un-banned was because I felt like I needed a community, a place where I could possibly forget about the outside world, and slumber into something I like to call "the zone". Last night while i was realizing my failed attempts to getting un-banned, that the entire time I was having conversations between the admins and the community, around 350 people have read my ban appeals. Main reason I wrote this was because I felt somewhat alive last night, while I was drinking my soup, I couldn't help but wonder if I made people "feel" from the thread. I know the admins were angry/upset, some parts of the community found it hilarious and filled with trolling material, but I felt fucking amazing, no matter how small or how insignificant it was I affected someones day, maybe I made someone laugh, maybe I made someone feel really fucking upset, but the point is I, ME, I fucking did something that made someone feel. So what did I do? I got involved, I started posting threads and participating in them, I had small talks and discussions about League of Legends and DOTA, and for the first time in a VERY long time, I was in the zone. But the reason I wanted Roach to be able to see this post here, and why I felt it necessary for it to be here. Was because last night I saw this.
... I was speechless, the man who banned me and the person I thought that would never forgive me, looked past all my wrong doings and actually talked to me. He doesn't realize what he did but that very same night, I ran to my ex-girlfriend's (now current) house and talked to her about all the great times we had, and all the bad times that we had, After reading what Roach typed I realized that the world isnt perfect, AND THAT IS OKAY, I learned that just talking or saying anything can help remedy a situation which looked fatal. I teared, and realized that even though you may not particularly like someone, or even if you hate them. Just saying a sentence, even maybe a few words could really make them feel a bit better to tackle the next day.
(we initially broke up because she found out that I use to be in part of a drug trafficking group apparently, if you run to a girls house, show up sweaty and knock on her door, she will forgive you :3)
SO Roach to end my rant I would like to thank you, all the admins, and everyone who read my threads and would like to leave you with a small thought.
It doesn't matter how small or insignificant you find your actions, but once you do them, for better or for worse, you have changed the world, or atleast someones.
I would just like to leave a poll, if the community wishes me to be un-banned great, if they community thinks that I should remained banned great, I will stick around either way and see you all in the forums
Would just like the opinion of the community, whether or not it happens through admin's decision is up to them, would just like to know what you guys think
Also this will be my last post in this section so dont worry about me coming back and appealing again tomorrow.
P.S. English is my second language so if something doesnt make sense, im sorry :/
Originally from korea
