Alcoholism: When if you have alcohol around the house it must be drunk immediately, when beer doesn't do it for you anymore and you need vodka, when 60oz in 24 hours is only barely enough, when you wake up and you start having spasms and your heart feels like it's going to explode for days after and everything around you makes you entirely paranoid and every little sound makes you drunk, when you max out your credit card and go into overdraft just to catch a buzz, when puking is just a way of life and you lose 40 pounds, when not remembering anything from the night before and having to check your text messages for what you have said previously is normal, when you've woken up in the drunk tank more than once not knowing how you got there is a fact of life, when your doctor prescribes you benzos to stop drinking, when you go to sleep with a perfectly clean place and wake up and everything is trashed, when you avoid social contact for days after because you can't handle the pressures of every day life, when you drink with people you have gone to AA with before, when you wake up in the middle of the night just to have another drink so you can get back to sleep. Yep... alcoholism...