Why apply for moderator if you know you can't make a continuous and substantial presence within the community?
w/e, staff will most likely just put it on hold for another 2 months until you change your mind again.
I understand that I have no presence on the forums, but I don't believe it would be wise for me at this time to continue applying for mod at least until I can get things sorted out on my end. I have been in a very tough spot due to personal reasons I wish not to disclose, but at the same time I can not ignore them.
I really do enjoy this community and the people within it. It's one of the reasons I wanted to become a moderator in the first place. So I may help sustain it. But if that means I have to put off things in irl, I have to go with the latter. In all honesty I feel the timing for me to try was just wrong. But hopefully once the day comes I will try again, and give it as much time as I need.
I thank you for reading all of this and I really did owe you all an explanation for what the situation was with me.