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yeah i concur just take up smokin pot kill one addiction with another lol!!
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Addiction is a psychological issue. Marijuana tends to cause more of a physical withdrawl then psychological issues.[/quote1245864283]
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I have an alcoholic friend who would make most alcoholics look sober and requires hospitalization for the very phsycial withdrawals every time he tries to get off a serious binge.
I myself was an alcoholic. I didn't need to be hospitalized, but I couldn't get through a day of work without downing four or five shots of gin at lunch. I couldn't leave the house without a bottle in my glovebox, and for over a year I was sauced whenever I drove anywhere, during the day or night.
It was bad, but I didn't know that for the longest time because I'm one of those people who can put away infinite amounts without losing grip of my rationality or memory. but when I lost enough friends because they had to keep taking away my keys and I'd take them back and sneak off after they passed out then I realized how serious that shit was.
It's easy for online friends to laugh at each other's serious problems and shrug it off as less serious than it really is when you don't see each other daily except for in the form of little digital CTs and Ts doing stupid shit like falling off heights in piranesi. But in the life of the addict, all the shit that makes good story telling is actually tragic because there is an underlying reason that's not always so obvious for why we do things to wreck ourselves and blur the bad memories away.
This is another reason I hate AA. I went thru a bunch of addictions not because I was weak but because I was in denial about all the shit in my life that I knew instinctively was wrong. AA doesn't solve that shit. AA gives you some horseshit about empowering you and yet all you see when you walk into the meetings is a room FULL OF POWERLESS PEOPLE!
They confuse you and get you to demonize your addiction instead of facing off with the problems that made your life feel so low that you turned to daily drug abuse in the first place. Then, even if you do succeed, all it takes is a forceful nudge to push you right off the wagon again.
I beat my addictions without the use of AA or NA and I'm not proud to be clean now because I don't believe that anyone needs to feel proud about feeling good all the time. I faced my demons, fixed my shit, and although I still think about blow and weed every now and then I just remember the good times I had doing them with friends instead of longing for the drugs themselves. I've talked to people from AA and NA and they constantly long for the drugs they're abstinent from. That's not a solution, and it should be evident by how high the relapse rate is for people in those programs.
so, Omission, if you really want help, then help yourself because nobody else can address the burdens you carry inside your head.